As time goes by

So to ramble on some of my thoughts I've decided to post my third blog. Earlier in this week I experienced something new. I had hit a bad patch of ice, ended up in a ditch. Now you hear that phrase you think the worst. Thankfully this isn't the situation. When I went in the ditch It was piled high with snow. And when My car went in it, it was like somebody tried to make a snow ball out of the most powdery snow ever. And tried to throw it at me. It was as if nothing had happened at all. Though I was 40 mins away from home it was getting dark so I had to stay out of town.

I didn't think anything of my little trip so i hadn't packed a single thing. So I missed A vitamin, and when this happens I get really sick.

Well my life has been changing so Much I'm in the second trimester so you think better morning sickness right? me too. Thats not the case. The following day i was sick all day couldn't keep a single thing down so late at night i decided to go to the hospital. There i was poked and proded. The verdict was I was becoming dehydrated. they prescribed me some pills. And of course I have to follow up with my doctor at my appointment on tue. So the one thing on my mind from this night is when the nurse who was doing the doppler started she told me they were trained to do them just not fully trained so basically they knew what to look for and that was about it. I told her where we found the heart beat last and she said she heard nothing. she started moving left on my abdomen and said the thing was picking up a heartrate of 180 and then we heard the faintest of sounds. She ended up dismissing it and kept moving left she then found my heartbeat. and asked if i was nervous! of course i was!

So Then she started to move right. and in the far left she found a strong fetal heart beat she est. it at 150. The one thing hanging in my mind is what was the first thing she picked up? Twins run in my family . Tho I won't find out until Jan when the practice does an ultra sound if it is twins. Tho I'm thinking it might be because I have high blood pressure which can be a sign of twins. And its just a feeling.

So at this moment I'm mad at the practices that only do two ultra sounds because I'm 15 and a half weeks preg. and I have yet to see my baby so this bothers me. Why can't i see it when so many others get too..

I'm frustrated :)

thanks for reading

A little ramble :)

So for the past couple months I have had the most interesting dreams. I can feel, smell,hear and everything in these dreams. They are so life like that i can still remember most. And its one thing I noticed was that many people actually have vivid dreams like these while preg. It makes me wonder why that is? Is it the extra hormones? Or is it simply just because they can be? I had one friend actually tell me that she believes the reason dreams become so life like is because. Its yours and the baby's dreams mixed together.

Last night for example the only thing i can remember out of my dream. Is I got test results back from blood work and the only thing that was wrong with them is the baby was releasing (insert fancy word here) and it was over the normal and it ended up being twins.

Now I feel I had this dream because twins run in my family every which way and the odds are not in my favor for having twins [i'd prefer my kids one at a time not multiples lol]

The final thing I want to bring up in this post is skin. The good ol' epidermus :)

I've read that you shouldn't use to much soap or hand sanitizer the cause it robs your skin of oils and nutrients. Now I read this when I was about 6 weeks along. So of course my first thought was EW! I am addicted to using hand sanitizer and washing my hands if I get something on it. I'm also used to showering about twice a day. But my doctor told me to cut back on that one as well. Of course i nodded and smiled and waited til i was in my car with the babies father before I did the gaging noises and the I can't believe that. But of course I didn't decide to listen to those words until a couple weeks ago. I get to go out and buy some lotion. The cause my stubborn self is peeling >.<

It seems that at a point of the 2 showers a day I noticed when i'd rub my arms or legs to warm them up after stepping out of the warm bathroom. There'd be skin rubbing off. And then all day my skin would be dry and itchy. So I cut back now of course. And of course My brother doesn't realize that I shower when hes not around So he does the "thats nasty you should shower" and of course I have to say "do i stink or something?" and my little brother is a smarta** so he of course would find something else to say after that.

but any way thanks for reading once again :)

12 weeks 6days+

How it started.

So I was reading the other day that one thing you should do during a pregnancy is to blog or journal your thoughts and opinions. So last night I was laying here wondering wiether I should go out and buy a new book. Or to start a new blog. So As you can see I picked the blog.

I'll start by telling you a little about myself. My name is Jessi, I'm from a small town in Ohio. And I'm 19 soon to be 20 years old. And I'm 12 weeks pregnant. And I am with an amazing man who is doing his part to help with everything going on. :)

So basically my thoughts on pregnancy is its a cruel joke. I found out I was pregnant at 6 weeks. The only thing that had hinted to me that I might be pregnant was the missing period and my boyfriend and I were fighting more, meaning something was wrong with me. Due to we hardly fight. I noticed I was being short with everybody. Not just him. I took a test. And there we have it the problem wasn't me starting to hate the world it was and overload of hormones caused by a baby! A few days after finding out I had my first battle with morning sickness. Lets just say my favorite food is now the enemy. When I was about 7 weeks to almost 9 weeks. I had horrible morning sickness. Now heres the cruel joke its called morning sickness but as well all clearly know it can happen at any point during the day. Shouldn't it find a new name?

At about 9 weeks I would say that the morning sickness calmed down. Because for me It literally became just that morning sickness. I found myself hugging the toilet only when I woke up. And The only thing that happened after that was just nausea if i smelled something i didn't like.

The only thing I have noticed a major difference in was that I got mad easily tho that is starting to settle down. at about halfway through the 10 week mark I started the "crying thing" anything and everything set me off. I dropped a paper I cried. I bumped into somebody I cried. I yelled at somebody then felt bad i cried. but I think you get the point. This has been the biggest emotional rollercoaster of my life by far.

Another thing that bugs me is since my first ob apt. about 5 weeks ago i've lost almost 10 pounds. but yet I have one pair of pants that fit. The others either button but are way to tight or don't button at all. So that means I get to go shopping. But the one thing I don't think I want to spend money on right now is new bras. Only because in 6 weeks my breasts have grown but i don't want them to keep growing and need a new bra in a couple months. So its officail sports bras are now my new friend. They are comfier to so that is a major plus.

The final thing i find to be a joke about pregnancy is that, it is not 9 months. Pregnancy is 40 weeks, which is 10 months. Some people do deliver early and some late, for those who are late they are pregnant for over 10 months! Growing up you hear 9 months. But when you get pregnant and the timeline is in front of you. Its just like why were we lied to? to make it seem like pregnancy is no biggy. and that its over before you know it?... Well I can't really say that last part. The weeks are flying by in the blink of an eye. It still seems like the week I found out.

Now a plus side to all of this. At 10 weeks and 5 days I got to here my little bundle of joy's heart beat for the first time. It was the best part of all of this by far. I can look past the lies of morning sickness and the whole "9 months" thing. :) the cause I got to hear that amazing sound. That sound keeps me going because in Jan. I get to see my baby on an ultrasound and I get to find out weither its a girl like I think it is. Or a boy like its father thinks it is.

As I begin to wind down this starter post I'd like to add that yesterday on thanksgiving was the first day I ate a full meal without feeling blah, it was so odd to have an appitete. And today was the first morning in 2 months that I did not be best friends with the toilet when I woke up. All in all its been a good day. With a lot of things on my mind that I will surely post about. But for now I leave you with this. And either tomorrow or next week I'll post about another thought that I have. Hope for anybody who reads this, that it wasn't to terrible!

thanks for reading.

12 weeks 1.5 days :)